In times like these, I have felt moderately sad. I am missing spending the holidays with my family. In order not to fall down the rabbit hole, I have made self-care a priority as much as possible. What does that mean to me? It means keeping up with my therapy appointments which allow me to continue down a healthy path. I keep in closer contact with my family because I am not the only one going through this and I know they need my calls just as much as I need them. In Colorado, things that I would normally do are closed. I have to pick and choose how much I want to put myself out there as I am in the high risk category. If I catch Covid, I could be one that gets very sick. Rather than shopping in the malls and enjoying the festive season, I’m sticking to online shopping this year. Also, due to Covid, I’ve been unemployed for several months, so I’ve had to trim my budget way down. I certainly have more time to find affordable gifts for my family as I no longer have a job. This year, I won’t be spending lavishly like I typically do. That’s one good thing! In the meantime, I am trying to read a book every other week while I continue to hit the pavement in my employment search. Looking for work in a specific field has made it harder for me to find a job. At this point, I’m pretty much open to anything.

For me, it’s all about trying to keep things in perspective. I’ve been doing my best to reach out to friends and family because I know we are all experiencing new and uncomfortable situations. Believe me, some days are better than others. There are some days I wake up confused as to how I’m in this position. Every day requires action on my part, whether big or small, to get up & keep moving. Like so many others, I miss the days of galavanting around. Unfortunately, it’s just not possible right now.

No matter how small, remember to do little things for yourself every day. More importantly, keep reminding yourself it’s ok to be holidazed and confused.